Taking a Risk

Taking a Risk

Okay, so have you ever had a project that you felt like it was your baby?

That was my book to me. I worked on it on the course of two years, writing it up till four AM, with my headphones on and the whole world off. The funny thing is, the writing was the easiest part. After you write a book, you have to go back and edit it, fixing all grammar, spelling or story mistakes you can find. I probably read my book about ten times during the editing period, and after each person who read it gave me feedbacks, I would go back and fix it some more.

My final draft doesn’t look anything like the first. I’ve changed so many things until I thought it was the best way I could tell that story. I was twenty-one years old when I started, and now at twenty-six I finally had the guts to self-publish it. You know what’s scarier than putting your work out there? Is having someone review it.

Let me tell you, I was terrified of receiving feedback because as I said, this project was so close to my heart that I just wanted people to love it as much as I do. However, we have to let go of that fear and take a risk, because people should know about your work.

I’ve received my first review this week, and for me, it was really helpful. I had some critiques, but they were well structured and clear, which will help me write my next book. When you know your weaknesses, you know where you need to pay more attention to. Even more so, I could see someone else–from outside my own social circle–read, enjoy, connect, and identify with my characters, and that for me is the most gratifying part of this job. All I ever wanted was to tell a story people wanted to hear (or read in this case).

For a girl who speaks English as a second language, to be able to write an entire book in English, and have it published, is something to be proud of. So, if you have a project you are passionate about, but you are not sure people will like it, you should take a risk, like I did, and show it to the world. Like I once heard on a TV show a long time ago, if my art can touch at least one person then I am happy enough.

Take a risk,




Be who you are.

Be who you are.

I was recently talking to a friend about how after moving away to another country and living by myself, helped me solidify the person that I am.

What happens is, when we grow up, people tend to tell us who we are based on certain reactions, opinions, tastes that we’ve had through that period of time. But most people forget that we keep getting new experiences, new inputs of situations, and we are exposed to different people and places. We are constantly being shaped by those things, and evolving new characteristics to our personality. However, those who always knew us -and who sometimes haven’t changed as much- react negatively to our changes, and say that this isn’t who we are. But who are we, really? Are we supposed to be only one thing during our entire lives?

After reading the novel Paper Towns, by John Green, I was struck by something discussed in the story, the fact that “people are mirrors instead of windows”. My understanding of the idea is that people reflect what others want to see in them, instead of being windows where we can see through them. We reflect what others want from us for so long that when we do become windows, those around us will believe we are not acting like ourselves, even though we couldn’t be truer to who we are.

If any of you has ever had the opportunity of going away from your hometown, family, or old friends, even for just a little while, you probably will understand that when we don’t have people’s expectations, we can shape ourselves to be who we want to be, or to show who, in fact, we really are.

Coming of age usually relates to leaving adolescence and stepping into the adult world. But maybe we are always coming of age. We change and leave things behind all the time. Change is scary, but it can also be exciting. You never know what new things will come into your life because of a new decision you have made.


So be who you are, keep changing, because once we stop changing that’s when we stop living.